This morning was perfect. The air was crisp and cool, the sun was coming out and we had to go out and enjoy a motorcycle ride. So we climbed on the bike and headed out to Davidson to a little restaurant called "The Egg". The motorcycle ride was a beautiful way to start the day. As we road home I kept thinking about where Chris and I have been and our dreams for the future. I kept being enchanted by God's nature and by the sky, the clouds, the trees and beautiful porches. So a perfect morning= crap free---I wish.
As I approach the end of the year of blogging I find myself wishing for more, wishing I felt done, wishing in the area of health I had seen huge changes. Then as soon as I start thinking that way I immediately remember how thankful I am for the changes I have seen in my life. I am thankful for so much and yet--- frankly there has been so much shame (C) surrounding my weight that if it even enters my thoughts I start piling (C) on myself. As we road, I thought a lot about blogging--- about this whole process and in a way I felt defeated. It was a rough day of wishing I had experienced as much change on the outside as I have had on the inside. Today was a struggle.
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