Monday...

This morning started off with my parents still being here. I had work that had to get done and I am not very good at doing work while people are around.  I started and tried.  I was able to work through and get a couple things done.  It is always interesting being around my parents.  I find it the most challenging at times feeling like a grown up when I am around them.  I find myself almost being defensive at things that are not necessary, all in an effort to feel grown up.  Frankly in much of my life I still feel like a 16 year old girl who is insecure, unsure of herself and down right silly at times.  I have often told Chris, I am sure he expected that his young bride would one day become an elegant woman.  I'm afraid he is still waiting.... :) I certainly feel more a girl than a woman and being around my parents makes it even more difficult, because I want to be that woman!

So tonight I am trying to feel like a woman :)  Trying to see the woman I have become.  It doesn't mean I can't be playful, and girlish.... but I don't need to feel less of a woman.  Perhaps I need to redefine woman, perhaps I just need to accept the woman I am.  Right now I have the Shania "I feel like a woman" playing in my head :).   I am letting go of the insecurities, the fear, the uncertainty, all the things that make me feel like the 16 year old and embrace the 42 year old woman I am!