Last Sabbath while sitting on a picnic table with Beth and her friend, Beth said something about how I can make things beautiful. I right away tried to make gesture that flew it off... and she called me out, saying that I always minimize it or discount it. Her friend asked me why. I know that I am creative and enjoy making things look appealing and beautiful, but I have often felt like that is all people see. I want them to know a deeper side, perhaps what I deem as a more valuable side of me. I have been thinking it ever since Sabbath. Wondering why now that I am educated working in a job where the, "making things beautiful" part is not the most important part of my job, frankly many people that I work with don't even know that is part of me. So why do I still minimize it. Recently I have even been perhaps running from it, or ignoring that part of me. It is still part of me. It is even a valuable part of me.
So I am trying to let go of how I am perceived and just be free to be me and let perceptions take care of themselves. After all, I can't really control what others think. I can just do my best to be who God wants me to be. That's it!
Today, Chris and I had invited the Kendalls to come over for dinner so that we could celebrate Liesl's birthday. Liesl turned 8 this week and is a girly girl who loves pink. So I decided to let go and have fun with trying to have a special dinner for her! It was so much fun. I felt as if I was back.... as if I was whole! Yes I am a person who loves to speak, to work, to talk with people, to inspire people. A person who loves to study, grow, and write; but I am also someone who loves to make things beautiful!
Today, living MtC included letting go and living whole, embracing every part of me! Here is what happened....
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